Ghost Town.

I think after my tool rant (its elaborated more on a xanga post) I have been slowly accepting why I feel this way about going back to Blue Springs sometimes. Most of it has been that for the past few years all of my friends have left the area and have moved away. Some to other places in the KC area and some further away. A lot of those who have left are the ones that I have been closer with for the most part so when I go back its not really the same, it hasn't been and I'm glad. It's almost surreal with how things change after you leave a place you have called home for so long. It's not home for me any more, I can't say that Lawrence is either but its somewhere I feel more comfortable at for the moment. Its just not the place I can call my home I wouldn't mind eventually settling down here but I need to travel and experience other things before it comes down to that. I've got another 2 (maybe 3 if I take a year off before grad school) years of living here which seems like by that time I'm just gonna be one of those old bitter jaded dudes around talking about what this town was like in my heyday. I don't want this as much as I love this town, its in a constant state of flux for me so its hard to become truly staked in here.

As far as classes go I just took my film mid-term I figure after the extra credit I will recieve a grade of 80-90%, the kicker is I haven't bought my book, most of the stuff was easy or things I recalled from prior classes. I have my test for Reason and Logic at 1 which is going to be my breaking point for the class if I do well I can hope to expect a B or at worst a C, however if this does not happen I am fucked.

Do you ever wonder if a poem or a song is about you? I do. Too bad its a dumb poem. I doubt its about me though.